Confessions

A couple of weeks ago I lied in church to a friend and this was no white lie. Does it count that I had a good excuse? During Sunday School I had to get up and leave in the middle of the lesson because of a bad stomach pain. I went and used the restroom and one the way back I saw a friend in the hall. I mentioned to her that I was debating about returning because I didn't want to have to walk in front of all those people again. She asked if I was pregnant because that is why women usually have to use the bathroom so often and would have to leave in the middle of class instead of waiting until the end. I laughed and said no it was because I forgot to go before class when my kids went and I really had go. That was my lie (I was able to come up with that on the spot, how bad is that?). I am pregnant, but I hadn't told any family yet and felt bad for letting it leak before I told my mom. I also worry about miscarriage. I don't want to have to tell everyone the sad news. Brian thinks I am funny for waiting so long before sharing the news.

Who knows why I had a bad stomach pain that day. I might have been sick with a little virus (Brian was sick for a week) or it could have been the slowing of my digestive system because of the pregnancy and it being my third. The body starts to remember more quickly with each child.

To some this third child just proves that Macy is the boss of our home. Ever since July she has been commenting about how small our family is and that she needs another brother or sister. In Utah she comes up to me and says "we need a boy baby" right in front of everyone. Sometimes she counts each member (which totals 4) and says we need more kids, sometimes she is specific and says we need 2 boys because we only have one boy and three girls. These moments have not been rare. To calm any fears out there, we are in control of the family. I think she is just a little more in touch with the pre-mortal and knew someone would be coming soon. I think she also was the answer to tell us that we had made the correct decision. Of course I might have to put my foot down if she says something about 12 kids.

When asked what the girls want, a boy or a girl, Kelsey says "a princess baby" and Macy says a boy because of the logistics of everything being even. We will see how in tune she really is.

For those wanting to know the details: I am 13 1/2 weeks along, so just starting the second trimester. The due date is April 10th, right before Macy's birthday. She won't let us forget that. Because of this she thinks her birthday is almost here.